HaHa What an Idiot!!!

Had a fun day yesterday with Sammi and Sheryl in the studio taking silly pic which are currently on my facebook.... x

I'm such an idiot lol.... had a really lovely lazy ass day... doing nothing but lying in bed and watching TV beautiful!!!! Then my day got disturbed but the rememberance that i had to work tonight... so i got read showerd, make-up the works to then walk into work and find that i wasn't working after my manager said that i was.... so i litterally walked in and out... it was funny but i felt like a right dick....

so I'm gonna do what i do best, apart from designing clothes absolutly NOTHING!!!!

Quote for the day...

Never trust a word your manager says . . . . because you never know you might end up getting fired! lol x

Is she for real??

Really is jennifer (my dickhead of a mother... comment at this if nessacery) for real, she needs to see a shrink or something because i know people say that everyone has a screw loose at somepoint in there life but to unscrew ur intire head and put it on backwards?? There's definately something wrong.

I mean she's had nothing to do with me or my brother or my dad for the last 13 years and she finds it apropriate to tell people who haven't given a shit about me for 95% of my life (so what if they're related) the fact that I'm gay.... what has that got to do with her in anyway shape or form??

Arrrhhhhh she's such a dickhead... it's the last straw really she's teased going over that line too manys and she's well and truely crossed it... if i see her she better have something on her side because drug and booze defo ain't gonna cut it coz i WILL tear her to shreads if i ever get my hands on her

She's no mother... as i recall you actually have to be apart of and involved in your childs life to even come close not simply give birth to them then fuck off... she's dead to me she really is... x

Quote for the day....
unconditional love is meant to be forever but even the ones who's love is meant to be unconditional can fade fast... x

What is life about??

I mean really why are we put on this planet, why does money exsist, we work all our lives for small rectangular pieces of paper which cause us nothing but stress and worry.

I never thought being a student money wise would be so hard... It's horrible... I have tention headaches almost everyday because i have no money to pay bills I have one hundred and one things to do for uni as well as trying to hold down a job.... my life has just disappeared.

It makes me wonder is this life really for me? Did I make the right choice coming to uni or would i have been better off going straight into work... I just don't know anymore, I think I did I really do fashion means everything to me... but what we do in uni make me think... Is this really what it's gonna be like in the real world?

At the moment we're all still being protected in this little bubble called education... and for some strange reason I can see myself shitting my pants when I go into work because everything that we did and were tought in uni will no longer count..... x

Qoute for the day ...
It takes time to understand why we're put on this earth... Finding your perpose in life can sometimes feel like you're taking three steps forward and ten steps back.... But the ultimate goal in life is finding yourself which many hope will never happen....x